My freedom story has been filled with shortcomings, failures, and disappointments. Porn was a part of my life for so many years. Time and time again, I swore that I was going to change.
“This is the last time, and then tomorrow I’ll stop forever.”
It was an all-too-common statement before my nightly binges.
The Dark, Heavy Feeling of Despair
The worst part was the feeling right after. The heavy dark feeling immediately after completing the act. The feelings of shame and regret as I messed up yet again. So many times, I cried out to God with so much guilt about what I had just done.
“I’m so sorry, God.”
“I promise to never do that again.”
I do believe that I genuinely meant it. The deep feelings of shame and guilt I felt were so strong. I hated that feeling and never wanted to feel that horrible feeling again. There was not any part of me that wanted to repeat the same mistake a few days or weeks later because that…
